Lion of the Virgin, 52nd of the Dog Days, 526 M.E. (Aldebaran): I'm 72 years old and slowly dying. Old age, gradual slowdown of metabolism and immunity systems, etc. The doctors tell me I'm actually quite healthy "for my age," but that qualifier is an acknowledgement of the mortality inherent in existence.
I bring this up because right now I'm wondering if I'm not having some kind of cardiac incident. I'm 99.9% sure I'm not having any sort of heart attack but starting yesterday, after my Madison in the brutal Dog Day heat of Georgia, there's a sharp pain in my chest whenever I breathe in deeply.
I'm not experiencing shortness of breath, dizziness, or the feeling of a constriction in my chest, the classic warning signs of a heart attack. A former coworker of mine had a heart attack while he was home alone and managed to drive himself to the hospital, and later told me it felt like there had been an elephant sitting on his chest. It doesn't feel that way at all to me. Just a sharp pang deep in my chest whenever I breathe in deeply.
My chest isn't sore and there's no pain when I touch, prod, or even thump on it. There's no pain between deep breaths and no pain during ordinary, casual breathing. But on a deep inhalation, I feel a sharp. little stabbing sensation right in my left breast. I worried if my heart hadn't somehow become enlarged, and the pressure from fully expanded lungs wasn't causing the pain, or if it was just some old-man muscle ache after overexerting myself during the peak of a Georgia summer.
I decided against going to the Emergency Room on a Friday night while they triage between gunshot victims and auto-accident survivors. I figured I'd wait and see if it passed, got worse, or what. Eventually, I even managed to nearly forget about it while I was breathing easily during my evening leisure in the comfort of my home.
I didn't want to sleep on my left side, but eventually found myself rolling over onto my left anyway. I don't give much credence to the interpretation of dreams, but as I slept I dreamed that as I was walking through a parking lot, someone suddenly opened a car door and pinned me to another vehicle and I couldn't escape. I awoke wondering in the dream wasn't my subconscious reacting to the sensation in my chest. I fell back asleep, but in a subsequent dream I was holding some cute but bizarre furry little animal to my chest, the subconscious mind apparently still fixated on that part of my body.
When I got up this morning, the pain was still there and still only when I took a deep breath in. As per my morning ritual, I took my blood pressure and it was 105/66, well within normal range. A "normal" blood pressure doesn't mean there's not a problem, but an abnormal BP would have been a red alert.
To see if the pain was muscular or internal, I ran a little experiment. I took an Aleve, which I find quite effective at easing muscle pains, and sure enough, after a while I could still notice the sensation during a deep inhalation, but it was far less intense. I experimented further during my alternating-day meditation today, deliberately breathing in deeply to observe the sensation, leaning into the pain rather than trying to avoid it was per one's usual custom. Sure enough, the more times I did it, took a long, deep breath in, the less the perception of pain in my breast. The sitting occurred some six hours after I had taken the Aleve, so it couldn't have been the drugs finally kicking in.
It's now been 24 hours since I first noticed the pain. I'm not going to the ER tonight (Saturday nights are even more chaotic there than Fridays), but I was planning to schedule my annual wellness exam soon, so come Monday morning, if the creek don't rise and I don't have a coronary, I'll schedule an appointment with my osteopath and discuss my little internal science projects with him.