Winter Drum, 42nd Day of Hagwinter, 525 M.E. (Electra): Secrets of the Essence Chamber, the 50th day of Hagwinter, is Rohatsu, the date of the Buddha's awakening. The next eight days leading up to the holiday comprise the Rohatsu practice period, a stretch of intensive meditation practice.
Monks around the world shudder in anticipation of Rohatsu. I'm not formally a monk, although I do fancy myself as an "urban monk." For many years early in my practice, I thought that when I finally retired from the workspace, I would join a Zen monastery somewhere, maybe Zen Mountain Monastery in Mount Tremper, New York, or Upaya Zen Center in New Mexico. Maybe even go to Japan. But as retirement approached, I lost my enthusiasm and started to consider myself less and less of a Zen Buddhist in the traditional sense of someone participating in, as Dogen put it, the unmistakable tradition handed down from teacher-to-student since the time of the Buddha.
Also, joining some new community didn't sit well with this introvert. However, as I studied the koans and lives of the ancient Zen masters, I read about forest monks and mountain monks who left the monasteries to practice on their own in seclusion. Those cartoons and comics that you see about the wise old man sitting on the mountaintop is based on the concept of the mountain monk. A forest monk is basically the same thing, but deep in the woods rather than on top of a mountain.
But as I thought about it, one can be just as isolated and alone in the city as on top of Old Smoky or deep in the forests of Fangorn. Urban loneliness and alienation are well-documented modern-day problems, the dark side of the anonymity and seclusion that cities can offer. To be alone in the midst of a bustling crowd seemed like as Zen a concept as any (the distractions are all in your mind, anyway), and after I finally did retire I went about fashioning a life of urban monasticism.
The covids were my first teacher. The pandemic broke out within a year of my retirement, and along with the rest of society, I wrestled with the new practices of social distancing and staying home alone. But even as the restrictions were lifted and life slowly returned to the new normal, I continued to hone a practice of urban monasticism. With each passing month and each passing year, I adjusted myself a little more, leaning into those activities that seem to belong on this path and dropping those activities that don't.
I'm sociable enough to my neighbors - I say "hello" and exchange pleasantries over the backyard fence when we bump into each other - but I don't seek them out, don't invite them over, and didn't accept invitations until they eventually stopped coming. Just as a monastic occasionally has to go to the market for the sake of the monastery, I go food shopping at the supermarket when I need to, although I don't go out "shopping" as a social activity. I chant the Heart Sutra at least once a day - generally, whenever I think about it. I sleep when I'm tired, and get up when I awaken. After I finish a meal, I wash my bowls and even disconnected my dishwasher to encourage mindfully fulfilling that chore.
My meditation practice, as I've noted here before, is currently 90 minutes every other day. With the approach of Rohatsu, it's time to step that up. My goal for the next eight days is to sit daily, instead of every other day, and to increase my time by at least 30 minutes each day. By the end of the practice period, I should be sitting for 5½ hours a day. I'll still try and maintain my alternating day walks, although with shorter daylight hours each day and more time spent sitting, I may have to cut down my nine-mile Harrisons to five-mile Monroes, or less.
For the sake of all sentient beings, now my watch begins.






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